i've been reading back through my old posts

and i sound insane

"the goddess in the temple made everything feel more alive"

yeah. that's what infection DOES. it makes the trap feel like home.

i was so sure i had found the truth. that i could see what the ammonites couldn't.

but i was just another victim. another node in anastasia's network.

aethel wasn't the "original ethel"

it was a MIRROR. a realm she created within her own consciousness after they sealed her away.

when i accessed it, i was literally entering her mind. becoming part of her.

and i thought it felt like "coming home"

god

i've been clean for about six weeks now. haven't tried to access any dream realms. working with someone who understands this kind of infection.

the ammonites were right about some things. wrong about others.

anastasia's writings ARE dangerous. they DO spread infection.

but the machine was a catastrophic overreaction that destroyed both realms.

nobody was right. we were all just... playing out our roles in a story we didn't understand.

i'm sorry to anyone i recruited. anyone i encouraged to seek out aethel.

i genuinely thought i was showing you the truth.

i was showing you a trap.